For a long while they sat opposite each other, gently holding hands. She with her head bent, her body racked with sobs; the Angel calm, still, waiting for the word that would have to be spoken. At last the woman lifted her head, pushed her hair away from tear stained cheeks, and said, simply, “I can’t”. Silence followed. She was gathering her energies to offer a reason, a rationale for why her courage had failed her; why she, who had always been obedient to God’s will and law, was now withholding her consent. “Don’t be afraid”, said the Angel. He’d used those words before, at the very beginning of the meeting, when his sudden presence, and the light that quietly emanated from him, had so clearly scared her. Now half-formed sentences began to tumble from her: about her place within this close knit community; the shame that the inevitable gossip and accusations would bring both on her and her family; the loneliness of a life as a tainted woman, one no man would take as wife; the pull towards prostitution, in the struggle to sustain herself and the child she would bear. It was too much. Please let this cup pass from her.
The Angel still held on to her as tightly as ever. Only when she had emptied herself of both her words and her tears did he respond. “Fear not”, he said, for a third time. “God loves you. He loves you as deeply as ever. This was never a command, always an invitation to come on a particular journey with him. Go in peace. Marry. Have children, and bring them up in that same love of The Lord which you yourself know. And teach them this; that God, in their generation, will do this great thing. Tell them to be alert, to watch for the signs that the Promised One is coming among them. Live long, do not regret your decision today; but of your mercy, when you hear of Him, pray for His mother.”
He stood up, passed out of the house, walked perhaps a stone’s throw away from the building, then stopped to wipe a hand across his eyes. He gazed back at the woman’s home for some minutes. Silently, he held her and all that she was before the One who had sent him. From somewhere within his robes he pulled out a scroll and unfurled it. It was a list of names, women’s names. Many had already been crossed through, and now there was another to strike out. He looked at the details for his next assignment. Another unpromising village, another pious but conventional upbringing. Another dispiritingly traditional name. Mary.
David Walker is the Bishop of Manchester
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I once had to address a group in a Women’s Prison in Auckland, New Zealand at Christmas. I told them the story of the Mother of Christ, faced with this dilemma, here described by Bishop David. Some of them understood the pain that Mary must have felt – at having to tell her fiance that she was having a child, and it wasn’t his. Those women were really sensitive to this Christmas story. It might just have helped some of them to know that the Mother of Christ was not immune to their experience of suffering and possible rejection by… Read more »
I can think of only one (or two) word(s) for this writing: exquisite. And true.
Beautiful!
I agree with others – that is a lovely piece of writing. A story told acutely with the woman’s point of view. I had never thought through the extent of the stigma that needed to be risked in the decision to bear the child.
And under that stigma and judgmental othering, Jesus came into the world. He also entered it under the protection of his mother’s faith and givenness to God. The child of a covenanted love.
How to explain the interplay between free will and predestination. Outstanding writing.
That is wonderful – acute perception, beautifully realised.
Very moving.
Mary’s fiat has been the source of much piety, some more edifying than others. In more than thirty years as a priest it has never occurred to me that the gravity of the role, the necessity of her total submission and the risks that would bring might mean that others had turned it down before her. Brilliant!
May I gently say that some of these devotional thoughts cannot speak to all Christians – and especially those who cannot think of the Lucan story of the Annunciation or of the Nativity (or the different Matthean stories, incompatible in certain respects with the Lucan) as literally true in any way. They are the Christians – and they would include probably most Biblical scholars – who believe that Jesus was born in Galilee, probably in Nazareth, as a son of a devout married couple, Joseph and Mary, as were his brothers and sisters. There are many works which suggest how… Read more »
May I equally gently suggest to John Bunyan that the rest of us may not be exactly unaware of Biblical scholarship, that we may be using the medium of story to explore what lies within and around the text in a rich way that polemic cannot access. It is easy to write a rant – even a very civilised rant – but they rarely help people explore what it means (in Dante’s words) to be moved at the heart’s core by the love that moves the sun and other stars?
I am a bit sad that my words are described as “a rant”. I was only saying that those devotional thoughts cannot speak for all Christians though I did go on to express the views of those others including ancient agnostics such as myself – and in my Diocese of Sydney, it is risky now even to express such views if one wants to retain a licence as a priest. I am happy if those devotional thoughts speak for many. My own limitations are probably shown again in my not readily understanding what Dante means when he speaks of “the… Read more »
I was reflecting on my own experience of writing John, not your words. I find it easy to write a rant. To express my anger against those who create homeless for other people. I have learned that if I reach deeper through a story then I can actually influence hearts. Dante’s words end his divine comedy. I cannot easily unpick all they mean. But he believed that the love of God called the universe into being and sustained it in being. He was well aware the sun was a ball of fire. He believed real happiness came from allowing our… Read more »
I take it John Bunyan, from your comment here, that your understanding of this story of Mary’s conception of the world’s Redeemer, that you are not able to recite the Church’s credal statement on the Virgin Birth. Does this adequately reflect the faith quotient of the majority of Sydney Anglicans?
I have always been interested to read Fr Ron Smith’s comments,but with my old mind I do not really understand what is meant this time by “the faith quotient” nor in this context by “Sydney Anglicans” (i.e. is the reference to those who sometimes or frequently attend church, or the great majority who identify as C.of E. or Anglican but who never or rarely do so ?) Regarding the virginal conception, even many Roman Catholic commentators would agree that this and the two stories which refer to it (and the words in the Creeds) are theological or metaphorical or poetic.… Read more »
“If there were a virginal conception, and for Jesus to be male, God would have had, miraculously, de novo, to create his Y and other chromosomes, normally derived from the sperm of a human father, and that genetic inheritance. But this means, Jesus would not have been “truly human”, DNA of our DNA,” – John Bunyan – Dear John, obviously you do not believe in the words of the angel Gabriel to Mary: “For nothing is impossible for God. I think, John, that Jesus’ human DNA came from his Mother, Mary. While I do not believe in the ‘Immaculate Conception’… Read more »
“Immaculate” in “immaculate conception” does not refer to a virginal conception or parthenogenesis. It means that at her conception (by the normal method of sexual intercourse) she was miraculously and uniquely preserved from the taint of Original Sin, with which the rest of humankind is — according to this dogma — tainted.
Whether one believes this dogma or not (and I’m very clear that I don’t) let’s not get confused as to what it means.
I believe in Original Beauty 🙂
The sin comes later.